Back on the Block

Yes folks I'm feeling refreshed and energized! Im glad to be back with you beautiful people.

Oh so many interesting things to discuss! I honestly dont know where in the hell to start lol! Well I guess I'll start by saying I have officially been married for over two months now and let me say its been the greatest and most draining experience of my life! LMAO My wife is awesome and so is marriage!

Now... As always I always have a bone to pick with something or someone! But honestly lol I dont have any today!!! So I guess I'm signing off til I have better words.

Now What?!

As I sit awake half past the midnight hour, I find myself questioning why I try so hard! There are some things I would love to say in complete detail, however due to the severity of the matter I think it would be in poor taste. But it amazes me to think the amount of effort people put in to things that they want and feel are important. As I sit and think, I wonder what some peoples view of negiotiating is? I mean, at this point one could argue that some conversations NEVER get resolved nor completed for that matter. So it happens that people dance around the same issue time and time again until.... Something happens.

As I sit awakened by thoughts that may anger some, confuse others, and might even bring others to tears I'm faced with the very drowning conclusion or rather should I say non-conclusive NOW WHAT?!!

Confessions of... ?!

Ok, yes dammit I know it has been too long since last I wrote. But I have been extremely busy with work, Sigma and tons of other things!

But do I have a hellified thought today. I was listening to the Ryan Cameron Show, and the discussion was about a woman who has been married for 23 years and apaarently has cheated on him for at least 10 years because his sex drive was all but non-existant. Another caller told her husband of 20 years that he should find sexual pleasure elsewhere due to the fact that she no longer found him sexually attractive. She felt it would be better if he found sex with someone else.

Now, this is SUCH an intriguing topic, I was just discussing this topic with some friends of mine. What do you do when your significant others sex drive is no where near your own? How do you cope when you, yourself has an extremely high drive? How do you reach an agreement with that person without making them feel inadequate. Is it even possible to salvage a relationship when you have allowed sex to disappear from your marriage?

On the other hand, how do you deal with the fact that your mate may not find you sexually stimulating anymore? What if he or she just doesnt think of you in that manner? I could only imagine how small that would make someone feel.

The question I suppose is whether either of these two circumstances warrent cheating? From the sex drive aspect, it has to be hard dealing with someone that doesnt express themselves sexually the way you do. This can in-fact lead to a plethra of feelings, hell one might be inclined to cheat!

But here's my question when you get married and you agree to compromise on things that you both may want, do or rather should you have to compromise on something that comes naturally? Your significant other wants your time; to cook, maybe clean, and be there for conversation. You meet those needs but they cannot or will not meet your sexual expectations. But I know its late and Im probably not making sense anymore! Perhaps its time for bed...

If I can!

Confessions of SOOO Politically Incorrect!

Ok so first allow me to say hello world! Sorry Ive been gone so long but the duties of the Rookie Husband of the Year are never done lol!

Disclaimer: this note is about to be very HARSH, REAL, and VULGAR. So just understand that I am explaining some things that have been on my mind.
2. To the people that read, know this this is not aimed at certain people I know, however IT IS aimed at other certain people I know.
3. For all you niggaz that read TOO Much into shit this does NOT involve my wife lol! We are fine!

Now that, that shits out the way lets get down to business!!!!

Im sick and fucking tired of you stupid ass broads that wanna play gay! Yes thats what all this is about! I recently had a conversation with a few friends of mine. We talked about our perspective organizations and how much dumb ass people are fucking them up!

Allow me to paint a picture (one that could happen to tons of people so its easily dismissible) A girl gets shat upon by her boyfriend, who she loves very much. He leaves her for whatever reason, and boom a few months later she up and lickin the clit! Now I have personally heard that she is in HIGH favor of the penis, now this butch got this broad turnin tricks! lol

Now this is not a new phenomenon. Truly gay women have been turning others out for years. But this note is for you hoes that like to play gay, I'll call you "THESBIANS"! You cut your hair and now you like @#$$&! I tell you the stupid shit that goes on, on college campuses is astounding!

And the EVEN funnier shit is, the true gay chick is manipulating the thesbian for organizational reasons! Its soo damn sad that some women are soo naive that they believe dating or messing around with another woman, that she aint got a mind that could fuck you over too!!!

So what the fuck you goin do then??!!! Now that you've been shat on by both genders what’s left. I'll tell you, just your stupid ass curiosity. Dumb ass ridiculous young minded hoes!

Huh... If I think of more it'll be edited.

Drops the mic! laughing at her or should I say their stupid asses!!!

Confessions of "Real Love"!!

Lets see Ive been sitting here thinking as I've been watching another one of those dumb ass "Real Love" shows, and I have almost lost count as to how many have been on. Let's see if we can name some:

Flavor of Love 1-3

I love NY 1-2

Shot of Love 1-2

Double Shot of Love

Real Shot of Love Etc....

Are you shitting me???? Has love become so over used that we think we can watch a few retarded ass folks desperate for money embarrass themselves and the very notion of love itself.

Now I have a little theory, and that is when we go out and aggressively pursue our own thoughts of love, God withdraws himself from our frantic little search. Why, because we stop listening to what he teaches us love is for our own dumb founded ass rationale. Do you think Adam went on the Hoes stroll before settling down with Eve, or better yet my man Joseph slingin pipe to every gypsy walkin through Jerusalem?

I once read that as human we are often times drawn to conclusions that we in fact no absolutely jack s#&% about! I think that is where Love has fallen and why the divorce rate is so damn high lol. We are misguided, in the fact that we assume our own theories of love are what in fact drive our relationships and this world. Sad, sad little people!!! Point blank the only true way we can find and hold on to true love is through the knowledge and wisdom of God!!!

Confessions of Not Easily Broken!

Ok, well yes today I saw Not Easily Broken with my pre-wife. And I must say that the movie was a lot better than I imagined. But I feel like there are some things that I should clarify for some people out there.

For anyone out there that has or ever been married I would thoroughly advise you to take marriage counciling classes. ALmost every major thing outlined in that movie we went through in class. But I digress, Ladies allow me to explain to you the importance of a romantic, intimate relationship.

We as men will always love our wives, however, as a men we not only love but NEED sexual fullfilment. Ladies honestly, we can have a big ass arguement and later that night still make love to you as if nothing were wrong! LMAO, the moral of this section is to advise, ladies; never allow yourself to take that aspect out of the relationship! Cause that will make things very difficult. Why? Because as men we have a tendency to express ourselves sexual, and that is also another avenue for us to show our "emotion". Just a thought!

Although this was not outlined in the movie, recently I was watching a rather interesting series with my pre-wife. Ive never been a fan but the author Zane has her own series on Max.

Now, while watching this show I came to a conclusion! Women like her books because they like seeing things that they wish they could do! Which to me is the funniest shit in the WORLD! Why? Simple, ANY man on the face of this Earth would love it if his woman would do some of the kinky shit I have seen and heard about in her novels. Ladies, if you are in a committed relationship, please dont be afraid to let us know!

If women actually knew how freaky/horny/sex crazed men actually are the world would be a better place! lol Again, if yopu are in a secure relationship or even married please dont think your man wouldnt love it! We like Kinky shit lol, Oh but one quick note of advise. Don't be naive and think we'll only try it once, lol cause after the first time believe me, that shit is on the menu! LMAO

Confessions of a Dynasty Lost

I told you they were going to keep coming lol!!!

Ok, I've got a lot of venting to do as we begin 09. But here goes;

As I look at what has been an amazing year of progress, change, and a downward spiral in the quality of life. I am faced with one Massive conclusion; African Americans are still undoubtly trapped in the Cave!!!

Socrates once said that all human kind is trapped in a cave, a cave that is ruled only by lights behind those captured. These people see the shadows created by the lights and think that these, illusions are real.

I believe this is the state that we are in! How? thats pretty simple, our youth now has yes seen the election of the first black President. However, one could argue that this amazing accomplishment is overshadowed by the tons of suedo intellectual images that they are bombarded with on a regular basis.

The very popular, and often ignorant acting, Soulja Boy, has been recently quoted as thanking Massa, and all his helpers during Slaver, for creating purpose, and showing the slaves, order and bringinng us out of the jungle. Need more evidence?

The Rapper Young Berg has been been quoted on Radio for saying he only dates Light skinned women, and that he doesn't do "Dark Butts"!!!

Given these tremendiously stupid and racially backward ass comments, are young men are becoming nothing more than a bunch of enept, empty, drones with nothing to live for or anything to live for.

But as I vent I realize this is not the end of the Cave, the Cave suggests that those of us that have already been brought out of the darkness are charged with the task of reaching back and pulling at least ONE person from the Cave. I employ those of you that realize the grim status of things to step back. We need to save our Boys, and the only way to do this is to step back into what we left and grab someones hand and teach them dammit!

So I leave you with this... How many have you saved?

Confessions of a Dream Realized!

Yes Folks Im back yet again in the 09! And yes as long as I can keep thinking it the titles will be confessions LOL!!!!

But anyway as I sit here engulfed in my man Hov's; "I know" I reflect on years past and all the more interesting things that have occuried throughout my life. I look back on all the things that I have been involved in and the people I have been involved with. And the one thing that I shall say to them all is... Thank you

Most people would say why in the hell would I say that, well because I realize that without them I would not be the man that I have become and soon to be!

I prove this theory, in one such swing. During all of those times I continuosly asked God to help create within a new spirit, mind, and heart. And granted although he doesn't come exactly when you want, but look at Him work years later I see all the things that I had hoped to become has begun to manifest itself.

I asked God for a woman that He thought was best for me, and I'll be dipped in @$#& if He not just sent me a woman, but an Angel!

With the help of God she has helped to not only motivate me, but to enhance my entire being, so much so that I would not even want to fathom where I would be without her help. So as I close I shall leave with this notion, Yes people prayer changes things, however, you cannot get so caught up in the length of time it takes for your miracle to happen. God does not work on our time, we LIVE in his!!! Therefore take the time to rely on his word and he shall guide your feet!

Peace and Love people

Confessions of a former Nymph!

Oh how different life is when the things we like and expect stop!

Im going to choose not to be long in this one and just say Damn its hard!!! celibacy is a BEAST... For those that dont know, please be happy you don't. Now I am sure there are those out there who think Im full of shit and that its not that serious! To you I say, kick rocks!!!

I am attempting to hold out another 6 months, but man I gotta admit, I take cold showers damn near everyday just to keep my sanity!!!

Oh the tangled web we weave!